Ok, who up there hates me so much?

Im such a faliure. Can't get anything right, no matter how much i try, or how much of myself i put into something, i fail.

Ive failed so many job interveiws, so many relationships, so many friendships... and now its been suggested that I cant complete the degree i want to.

"you failed"

"but i tryed so hard!"

"theres to many areas for concern"

"im working on them!"

"its not an easier option so if your changing for that reason.."

"Im NOT looking for an easier option, im looking for something that i will find more rewarding at the end for myself!"

"you dont know anything about early child hood"

"Thats why im here to learn!"

My pleads fell on deaf ears.

So now my future at university is looking quite bleek. I dont know if they will let me do the papers i want. She said it will depend on the appeal for the failed PIP paper. So no everythings up in the air and no matter what im feeling like more of a faliure than ever before.

Why WHY oh WHHHHY do things always end up like this for me? Am I a really horrible person? Im kind to animals, i love my family, i LOVE kids.. I try to be a good friend, daughter, girlfriend... but i guess i fail at all those things to... suprise, suprise.

Im just.. numb.. and wanting to give up all my dreams and go back to working some crappy job for minimum wage for the rest of my life.

(failure)