I start today with an overwhelming sense of dread, all because of a disturbing dream in which K tells me hes leaving me for someone else.

The thing im most paranoid about in the whole entire world.

And why wouldnt he? theres far to many beautiful girls in this town, in this country. i could never compete.

I mean Glenn had another girlfriend the whole time we were together... Blake left me for another girl...

Im worried because of a dream, how silly. he loves me, i know he does, i see it in his eyes.... its something he could never hide when he looks at me, unlike the feelings about everything else he wont share that he keeps hidden in a far away place i might never get to.

But the whole thing is, lately my dreams, the very vivid ones that i can remember every detail of, have been comming true..

and thats what im scared of.