Well, I have been stressing for the last week over one of my exam results. I failed a paper, and its just not "a paper" its like THE paper that governs our future at teachers college. The paper i failed was the paper we do our teaching experience on.. now, when i saw my results i thought there must have been some mistake.. i passed all my assignments.. yet upon ringing the paper co-ordinator to find out what the deal was, he informed me that i had failed TE2 based basically on a report by a person who observed me for half an hour out of the total of three weeks there. I know this because the associate teacher told me when she was going over my report with me that she had based her comments on what the visiting lecturer (the half hour person) had said so that they were consistant. So a big THANKS to her (not). man i wanna go blow up her car or something, seriously im so mad. So anyway, Loyd (the paper co-ordinator) spent about half an hour on the phone with me telling me how i can appeal the decision. IT involves me writing a lettter to some guy telling him why i thought the report was unfair and did not reflect my true ability. And MAN do I have alot of evidence to back my shit up..

*sighs*

So ive made a decision. Im quitting primary teaching, and nothing anyone can say to me can change my mind. Instead im going to change to the early years degree which allows you to care for children 0-8 which is more my style. I dont want to teach children over 8, ive known that for a long time, te2 (when i had 10 year olds) just proved this to me, i hated it, every day i would come home and cry.. i felt like complete and utter shit.. i felt like a faliure. For some reson i just get on better with younger children, so thats the path i need to take.

Im so upset that i could fail when i put so much time and effort into everything i did, how can they fail me on something when im supposed to be learning? that i was given advice on and took it and apllied it over the next week.... how can i be failed on what is one persons opinion of my teaching ability after a HALF AN HOUR of watching me?!?

and more to the point... who the fuck neglected to tell me!!!!?!?!

yea this isnt making much sense. im upset, im mad and yea.. everything all at once.

im out.

*hugs*