Shes right you know i dont understand. But i want to, and im trying.

80% of the people close to me have depression, this includes 2 family members, my best friend and my bf, and I dont understand it.

I see how it affects them, I see how it makes them feel... and i cant fix it for them, it kills me coz i cant make the people i love happy.

But it isnt a case of being happy or not being happy is it?

Ive been on the recieving end of it so many times. Had to deal with harsh words that were spoken and not ment, a breakdown and a nearly breakdown, the medications, the counciling, the ups and downs, worrying.. wondering.. hoping that theyre going to be ok.

Ive never suffered from depression myself... so i cant begin to think what it must be like... but i can try, and i can support.

Dont think i dont care, i care more than you will ever know... and dont think im unfeeling or cruel by the things i might say or do, just remember that its hard for people on the outside looking in at the darkness.

I just want to make everything better for everyone... and im realising i cant.