see it's like.. the next step is always to come so this moment isn't for real.

but if that's how it goes nothing will ever feel right, it will never be now. life will never be significant, just a given. waiting and waiting for a bright and promising future that will never quite arrive.

teach me how to live for the moment and i promise i probably won't listen. sometimes i forget i'm alive/a human.

mirrors are a frightening reminder.

gotta blow off the dust and say 'oh yeah! forgot about you!'

when you fall into a pattern, it's just awkward to change it.

people are so funny! we're just so ugly. bony, squishy, hairy, slimy.. yelling and shrieking... just lovely. :o/

never really feel proper and sure about it, but im pathetic like that and need the effect.

as soon as certain events are over.. i will be an ecstatic person, doing all that happy-person stuff like stopping to smell the flowers and what-not. just wait.

i have no idea what i'm doing, but i'm quite aware of what i've done.

had the wickedest weekend...

doing doughnuts in your car on the beach with great friends is the best time anyone can have. =))