I know they say that good things come in small packages but would it be good to get some things that are big to help fill the empty spaces in your life.

You know happiness in really a state of mind that is dependant entirely on how you let things affect you. How you are affected seems to determine what happens next and over time the sort of person you turn out to be.

Maybe becoming all bogged down affects our ability to deal with things. So we don't deal because it is easier to say nothing then say something wacky and have to explain yourself. We just let it sit and slowly is consumes us and bogs us down to the point where reality becomes just a distorted vision too hard to comprehend and too far to reach. Maybe we just don't want to know. What you don't know doesn't hurt you remember. Something bad happens and you look back on the happy memories from the past and it seems so much worst because you just crave to relive those memories. It's so hard to deal with the fact that you just can't go back there and why everything can't be good once again. So deep down anger confusion and frustration are born.

Some people pretend to be so tough but really we are all so fragile and delicate. The truth because so covered up by the face we put on everyday and the artificial strength we hold. But then something happens even though "it will never happen to me" but it does and suddenly you can understand death, pain depression and the other powerful emotions that those people had so bitterly associated with the "depressed ones". A feeling of vulnerability covers you, it covers all of us and we realise it doesn't really matter how cool you are, if you have the latest CDs, whether your clothes say "Lee" or "Target" everyone is human and when your cut you will bleed.

So what happens next? the pain you endure makes you a better person? You are more aware and cautious. You step lightly on the broken glass, avoid similar situations and turn away from those who you can see will just hurt you, again.

You work hard to return to a stable state of mind.

but stuff like that never happens to me...

I hope that deep down inside I am a good person, that I have the powers and qualities to be loved, go far in my life, help people and be happy and each time that I do fall when something goes wrong, it is never hard enough to totally break me....