I know my diary is super boring and intense lol.

Well, everyone goes through different phases at their own times so I don't expect people to completely understand or relate to me.

Right now I find myself thinking:

We all are constantly, whether its conscious or subconscious, looking/hoping to run into a person who makes you feel complete. Someone that makes you feel so amazing that it makes you feel like you are jello inside.

Now that I've got what I asked for, it's super exciting but scary too.

Once you've found someone that makes you feel complete, what happens when its not forever...

THAT is what I'm scared of...

I'm also scared of how confident I feel. Confident that I only need him. And I know, there is a thin line between confidence and becoming blind by over confidence.

You know when you purposely want to disbelieve in something? Just so when it doesnt turn out your way, you have less expectations set up for dissappointments? It's like that but the opposite. My heart is a stronger than my mind right now.

The pestimist that I am, I usually tell myself negative expectations to prepare for dissappointing information. Right now, I'm just the opposite.

See, I told you I've been changing...