You can't always trust the people you want to... When the desire to trust that person runs high enough to blind you from all the distress that person brings you, you are screwed.

Welcome to the endless tangle of lost hope.

Hope: that they actually mean all the nice things they say to make you feel special. Special like how they are special to you.

Hope: that they didn't really mean it when they did something to make you feel uncared for.

Hope: that all your effort of standing by their side through all the bull-shit is going to pay off for a better tomorrow.